To Be Nobody

I love to write an play, write a story, to act, to play a role...
Those where I can pour out all my imaginations, even the wildest one. Sometimes, I wanna be the one who is not part of my life. Who is not known. Who is not me! To become somebody else, [may be] I can feel the freedom.
Or I doubt, to become someone else I can escape from my real life. To feel the world that is not mine. To feel the world of imagination. Maya.
In writing a story and playing a role, I can change the rule, change the role, change the plot, change the past, change the future, and change the present. To make my own world. Be in world that I want. But this imagination could change me. And it makes me scared. To be something that world doesn't know... I wonder, does the heaven know me?

Then I stop writing... I stop acting...
Wherever I go, whatever I do, Whomever I act as... I am still me... Sumtimes you can be somebody else. But in the end, you are still nobody. You are just... yourself!

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